Unbearable Pain: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a gloomy Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing records suggest unusual treatments for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Melanie Campos
Melanie Campos

A seasoned journalist with over a decade of experience covering UK politics and social trends, passionate about storytelling.